The Small Rants Thread X: Turn Down for Bitchin'

[linklord231]

My phone decided to take an over-the-air update to Android 5.0 while I was at work, and now a bunch of my apps don't work.  For instance, Dolphin Browser can't connect to Google.  It connects to other pages just fine, but not Google. 

[Amechra]

Is... Google unavailable to anyone else?

nope, but perchance are you getting a dns error?

I'm getting a "server not found" error. I can load pages that aren't owned by Google just fine, but Google is verboten, apparently. I've checked with both Firefox and Chromium.

EDIT: This is especially frustrating because my University hosts their email services with Google Mail.

[bhu]

Every so often lately ive been getting a server or dns error, and its usually late night my time  I can always get online except for certain sites, and they're always popular sites like yahoo, google, etc.

I honestly think its at the cable companies end.

[awaken_D_M_golem]

Is... Google unavailable to anyone else?

Google Chrome is not able to handle the WotC site,
on this ganged system with aggressive weenie filter,
like specifically the Mind's Eye psi index just shuts it down.
Had to restart the terminal twice.
wtf

Android 4.4 doesn't display some Graphics and Frames.
 
Some text rolls into other text and is unreadable.

[brujon]

Probably going to be breaking up with current girlfriend later today. In retrospect, i shouldn't even have accepted to be her boyfriend in the first place. It should never have gotten serious, but she wanted it, and i went along with it, knowing that wasn't where my heart was.

I fucking hate breaking up. I have been on the receiving end too many times. Somehow, i think it's even worse when you have to be the one to break it all up. Worst part, she hasn't done anything wrong per se, but i don't click with her. At all. There's no spark.

I like her, i really do, and i think she's an amazing person that will someday find someone who appreciates her properly. I'm not that person.

I fear the mother of my child may have broken my heart in a way i didn't think was possible. I believe, i now have lost the ability to feel. All i can feel is physical. It's not emotional. It's not like it once was...

I don't know if that damage is irreversible or not. But i know now that i'm not really ready for a serious relationship.

There's so much shit going on right now in my head, i'd have to write a fucking wall just to get it all out. So much shit happened, and i'm letting it all happen. I feel like i'm in a train with no breaks. I don't have filters anymore.

The TL;DR of it is, i have become a bastard. A real fucking jackass.

[Psysama]

Bad news.  My parent's dog, and my friend for the past 13 years has been put to sleep today.  She was a Pembroke Welsh Corgi and her name was Amie.  If I knew today was going to be her last day, I would have said my goodbyes when I was over at my parents' house today. 

[Amechra]

We're here for you.

Would you like to talk about Amie?

[bhu]

mass hugs for psysamas 

[Psysama]

We're here for you.

Would you like to talk about Amie?

Amie was a fun and very loving dog.  To her, she did not know the word "hate" (unless it had to do with cats).  Definitely not a good guard dog, she'd probably show you where all the silver in the house was.  I helped raise her; spent most of my time from February to June to raising her before I went off to college.  She would always sniff the ground for crumbs and yes, that is a beer keg around her neck in that video (it's empty though).  I will miss her.

[Raineh Daze]

This is why I will never own pets myself. I've lost too many already.

[Amechra]

She looks so sweet.


On a (less important) note, both of my heels are pretty badly cracked. I'm limping about because the plates of callus kinda hurt as they compress. The one on the right looks a bit naff as well. And apparently this is an infection risk - who knew?

I'm thinking it might be a good idea to see the health clinic about this tomorrow morning; they've been like this since Thursday/Friday of last week, and might be infected.

[bhu]

Be safe and go Amechra.

Psy that is an adorable puppy.   

[phaedrusxy]

The TL;DR of it is, i have become a bastard. A real fucking jackass.

Been there man. It sounds like you're probably depressed. Hang in there, get therapy if you need it (you probably do ). It will get better.

[brujon]

The TL;DR of it is, i have become a bastard. A real fucking jackass.

Been there man. It sounds like you're probably depressed. Hang in there, get therapy if you need it (you probably do ). It will get better.

Broke up with her, went much better than expected.

I don't think i'm depressed... I've been depressed, and this is something different. This feels like i've become jaded, cynical. Whereas once i found it easy to emotionally connect to women, to hand over my heart to them and really commit, i now seem to be unable to do that. I desire their bodies, and perhaps their company - but even their company isn't something that becomes irreplaceable to me.

However, i don't think this is a necessarily bad thing. It means i've changed, that's for sure. I'm looking back and seeing who i was, and who i am right now, and i'm romanticizing the past, which is a pitfall, a trap. A surefire way of being eternally disappointed with oneself. This is not depression, this is me giving a harsh judgment of myself because it's not who i wanted to be before.

I should savor this moment. I've always been one to jump from relationship to relationship, looking for comfort in others, and, i think, i finally realized that it's not really necessary to be with others to be happy. In a way, i'm happier by myself, in no serious relationship, just going from fling to fling, than i was back when i was engaged & in love.

Someday, perhaps, i'll meet a girl that changes that. In the meantime, i'm no monk & no priest. I'll just try to not be a jerk. Not too much, at least.

[Kuroimaken]

Bruj, man, get over yourself. What you're doing NOW is romanticize the present as an alternative escape because you feel bad that you DON'T feel bad about breaking up.

You're only really a jerk if you intentionally hurt those you leave behind after a breakup, or you simply don't give a crap. You're not a jerk FOR breaking up - you would be, however, if you dragged that relationship on while cheating on the girl, or even leading her on when said relationship wasn't feeling good for you anymore.

You want to have greater emotional fortitude than you actually do now, because past breakups have, in conjunction with your depression, left you in a very, very bad place. But to get there, you're trying to emulate something you are not, to wit, a stone-hearted, jaded, cynical beast of a man.

I suffered through something similar back when I was a teenager. I was bullied in elementary and junior high, so I put up this whole charade where I didn't give a fuck, and it came back to bite me in the ass many years later. Nowadays, I'm working towards giving the appropriate number of fucks to a situation without jeopardizing my ego in the process, because pushing aside everyone who remotely gives you grief in any way or fashion is a surefire way to wind up alone.

[awaken_D_M_golem]

'Nother way to look at it ... this was the Rebound girlfriend.
So now you've "rebounded" and you didn't like doing all that.
No more rebound girlfriends for you, stick to the real thing.

Some people are players, or even into hook-ups only.
Then if one of them accidentally works out for a while,
well hey it was an accident right?  But that's not you.

Fine.  It's good to find that out about yourself.

[brujon]

What i believe is happening is that i finally got it in my head that i don't need anyone else to be happy. Before, basically the only way i could deal with a breakup was by getting into another relationship. Which is exactly what i did, back in september last year. But i couldn't really care about the girl i was with, so i cheated on her, repeatedly. Which, admittedly, was a very shitty thing to do.

So i broke up with her, and i was seeing multiple girls at once. One of them pushed hard for a relationship, and i ended up caving in. I regretted it before we even got to a month of being serious, so i ended it. I ended it despite that she's amazingly beautiful(kind of looks like Sasha Grey, TBH), smart, and has one of the cutest laughs i ever heard.

I did it because i couldn't really commit, and some other NSFW factors as well. I'm now in a place where i'll be toxic in any serious relationship, no matter what. I know that. It doesn't matter how amazing the girl is. I think that the bachelor life is amazing, and is something that i had never really lived before. Before, i had one or two one night stands, and i had one or two adventures.

Since my fianceé broke up our engagement, i had several of both. In a sense, i've lived more since then, than i did my entire life before. If i had self-image and confidence issues before, they've now completely evaporated. I can walk up to a girl i have never seen before in my life and be successful - and, more importantly, not care if i'm rejected. And it's been amazing. If i'm going to be honest, i'll say i'm getting kind of addicted to this lifestyle. It's completely different from everything i've lived prior, and better in a lot of ways. For one, i don't have to justify myself to anyone about anything that i do.

But, yeah, i haven't completely transitioned in my mindset yet. I still think that i maybe should really settle down, but then i change my mind. It's hard. In a nutshell, it's like, before i thought i had very few options, and because of that, i gave my all to try and make it work when i found a girl that clicked with me, and i really tried to gloss over all her flaws and focus only on the good bits. Now that i know that i have ALWAYS had ALL the options, it's kind of hard to really settle down. It seems that the first thing that displeases me is enough of an excuse to break it off and try to find better options.

And, yes, i kind of feel bad about having been a jerk to my prior two girlfriends. Like golem said, i've rebounded and i didn't like doing all that. Only now, i don't see myself really settling down anytime soon. I'll just try and be honest and upfront to all the girls about that now. Hopefully that makes me less of a jerk and i feel better about myself.

[Amechra]

So, umm...

Remember how I said I was going to the doctor?

Apparently I lied; the swelling and pain was vastly diminished by morning, and the cracks in my skin have already sealed. Including one that was at least 3mm deep and angry red.

I didn't even take any antibiotics or anything; I just put socks on before sleeping (I saw online that it helps keep skin oils on your feet, to stop it from getting worse) and slept with my feet propped up (old hiker trick; it forces blood to circulate between your feet and your core), and I went from "I feel like I'm wearing high heels what is this bullshit" to "mild discomfort".

In 5 hours.

For reference, most stuff I've seen online says that this kinda thing is serious and can take weeks to heal. I'm over it in... three days? I mean, if you mark it from when I started actually doing something about the problem.

Then again, I usually heal from small cuts in about 20 minutes, subsist on half the normal amount of sleep, and look like I'm two-thirds my age without my beard, so I dunno. None of this is particularly odd in my family; my sister's in her late 20s and looks like she's in her late teens, and mother looks roughly half her age.

tL;dR: I might have mutant healing powers. They're bullshit, and the only part of my body that actually works.

[SolEiji]

Gentlemen, it appears that the Weapon X gene has finally found a successful host.  So far the subject has not erupted into an Akira style tower of flesh, nor started another Zombie Apocalypse (we all remember the Theta-5 incident).  I think this one was a success.  I recommend dispersing the gene among the population of this planet and allowing it to set.  Should be ready within 5 years. 

Then, we can begin the harvesting of brain matter.

Good job everyone!

[awaken_D_M_golem]

Now if you could just have a variant Lay On Hands for that,
you'd have women in heels, waiting around the block.