I think my son may be wanting me to get back with his mother. He's always SO MUCH MORE CHEERFUL during the brief periods of time we are together when she drops him off and picks him up. Not that he isn't cheerful 100% of the time, he's always laughing and running around. 100% healthy.
I mean, seriously, it's like he wants us to play with him together like we used to when we were together, and that shit is heartbreaking as fuck, because it's very unlikely that it will happen. We're simply not meant for eachother. At one point, he held my hand, trying to drag me towards her and screaming "Mommy. Daddy." over and over. Like he wants me to hug her and hold her like he used to see us do a lot.
In a more positive note, this is helping me a TON, because he's so extremely affectionate to me when she's looking, it's starting to undermine her mistaken assumptions that i don't take care of him well enough. Which is good, because i'm thinking we are going to need to go to court again, to revisit the issue of shared custody.