Author Topic: Well, ..... fvck my life, I guess.  (Read 188 times)

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Well, ..... fvck my life, I guess.
« on: September 29, 2018, 11:47:30 PM »
Not looking for answers; just need to vent.  Seems like as good a place to do that as any. 
(if you don't care to read a pity party, this is your last chance to leave/ignore -- you've been warned)

Since my last disappearance from here, it's been quite a roller coaster. 
In the 10yrs that I've been trying to brute-force my way through an ever-deepening depression, somewhere along the way I lost the ability to discern the difference between the depression and what seems like a run-of-the-mill mid-life crisis.  On top of that: I've rage-quit 2 jobs (fun stories); got kicked out of my house (landlord all of a sudden decided that they wanted to live in that house) and because [insert long story] I'm living in an extended-stay motel; mom died this summer (my very last words were "hurry up and die already", 3yrs ago); and found out 1.5 months ago that I've got kidney cancer (and possibly bladder cancer as well -- as well as a slew of other accumulating health problems) - and I'm stuck having to use the VA, because as an independent contractor I can't afford real health insurance.

Yup, fuck my life.


I've got people around me; but I can't very well bitch at them every time I want to throw a pity party, else I become such a downer that nobody wants to hang out with me anymore.  They got their own lives and own problems.  At least you guys are in the disinterested position of not knowing me IRL (and can always ignore the thread from here out).  Don't worry, I'll try to keep this to a minimum -- update my dr. appointments, note any status changes, and respond to anyone who wants -- but otherwise, I'll just keep trucking on.  Like I said, just need to vent.
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Re: Well, ..... fvck my life, I guess.
« Reply #1 on: September 29, 2018, 11:50:06 PM »
I wish you luck with the health issues.
Still short tempered.

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Re: Well, ..... fvck my life, I guess.
« Reply #2 on: September 29, 2018, 11:57:27 PM »
me too.  I might need it.  :)

thank you.

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Re: Well, ..... fvck my life, I guess.
« Reply #3 on: September 29, 2018, 11:59:23 PM »
+Good fortune.

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Re: Well, ..... fvck my life, I guess.
« Reply #4 on: September 30, 2018, 12:04:30 AM »
 :thumb

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Re: Well, ..... fvck my life, I guess.
« Reply #5 on: September 30, 2018, 12:23:35 AM »
I doubt you really need to worry about keeping your venting to a minimum if you're gonna do it here. Vent without restraint here, its not a bad thing.

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Re: Well, ..... fvck my life, I guess.
« Reply #6 on: September 30, 2018, 12:33:07 AM »
'preciate it. 
I just don't want to become known as Mr. Whiney-Ass Complainy-Pants, like some kind of f'n Eeyore or something.  :tongue

(btw, let me know if I become that guy)
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Re: Well, ..... fvck my life, I guess.
« Reply #7 on: September 30, 2018, 03:10:41 AM »
Eeyore is the best yo Eeyore was the only one who knew what's up  :lmao

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Re: Well, ..... fvck my life, I guess.
« Reply #8 on: September 30, 2018, 06:44:29 AM »
Yup, fuck my life.
Sweetheart, could you speak up?  ;)
Would you die if you jumped from my perceived ego to your IQ? - Is 15secs of confirmation bias a goal post worth arguing for? - Ever asked a "victim" what they did to deserve it? - Are the words teen, SJW, & liberal synonyms? - "Only Sith deals in absolutes" contains a misspelled word.

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Re: Well, ..... fvck my life, I guess.
« Reply #9 on: September 30, 2018, 06:57:49 AM »
Yup, fuck my life.
Sweetheart, could you speak up?  ;)
???

(sorry if I blew a joke -- you'll have to explain)
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Re: Well, ..... fvck my life, I guess.
« Reply #10 on: September 30, 2018, 07:53:24 AM »
(sorry if I blew a joke -- you'll have to explain)
I alluded to a Deadpool reference, but without knowing how you'd take I didn't go all the way.
Would you die if you jumped from my perceived ego to your IQ? - Is 15secs of confirmation bias a goal post worth arguing for? - Ever asked a "victim" what they did to deserve it? - Are the words teen, SJW, & liberal synonyms? - "Only Sith deals in absolutes" contains a misspelled word.

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Re: Well, ..... fvck my life, I guess.
« Reply #11 on: September 30, 2018, 01:08:17 PM »
pitty party accepted and filed accordingly.


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Re: Well, ..... fvck my life, I guess.
« Reply #12 on: September 30, 2018, 03:55:00 PM »
Whoa this is a big pile of wtf, reasonable to be depressed about it. 
Even Spock would say your feelings are valid.



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« Reply #13 on: September 30, 2018, 04:14:30 PM »
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Re: Well, ..... fvck my life, I guess.
« Reply #14 on: September 30, 2018, 05:48:35 PM »
mass hugs  :hug :hug :hug

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« Reply #15 on: September 30, 2018, 05:54:45 PM »
(sorry if I blew a joke -- you'll have to explain)
I alluded to a Deadpool reference, but without knowing how you'd take I didn't go all the way.
Oh shit, that's right -- "it's a little hard to hear you with that pity-dick in your mouth".  :lmao  :clap
... but I already fucked it up. sorry.  :( :blush


pitty party accepted and filed accordingly.
Sure, leave it to you to turn this in to a dick-waving contest :P ;)
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@ aDMg:
a big pile of wtf, indeed.  :thumb
I'll work through it, though.


Thanks bhu  :hug
you always have the best hugs.


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Re: Well, ..... fvck my life, I guess.
« Reply #16 on: October 01, 2018, 12:53:11 PM »
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Your welcome  :P
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Re: Well, ..... fvck my life, I guess.
« Reply #17 on: October 01, 2018, 01:02:58 PM »
(sorry if I blew a joke -- you'll have to explain)
I alluded to a Deadpool reference, but without knowing how you'd take I didn't go all the way.
Oh shit, that's right -- "it's a little hard to hear you with that pity-dick in your mouth".  :lmao  :clap
... but I already fucked it up. sorry.  :( :blush
Hey I'm just glad you took it well and got a laugh out of it.  :)
Would you die if you jumped from my perceived ego to your IQ? - Is 15secs of confirmation bias a goal post worth arguing for? - Ever asked a "victim" what they did to deserve it? - Are the words teen, SJW, & liberal synonyms? - "Only Sith deals in absolutes" contains a misspelled word.