The Small Rants Thread IX: Leaping into the Well of Darkness

[brujon]

Yeah, that's... Really bad. If it makes you feel any better, i also didn't know/remember it was this bad.

[awaken_D_M_golem]

 
Is that a candidate for CoD-Zero ?!

 

[awaken_D_M_golem]

And now the brake light is on in the car 

Granted its negative 20 degrees, so its possible its just that

That's not the brake light, that's the Eiji light.  It's trying to warn you there are Eiji's in your car.  You should be careful, they're known to spontaneously [REDACTED] when the brakes are applied.

If it's just the sensor for the Parking Brake, it's nothing.
If it is the Parking Brake, just back up a whole lot, like in an empty parking lot, turning right backwards for a few loops, then left backwards for a while.  That might actually fix it, might not.

If it's just a sensor for the Anti-lock system, it's "n"-othing ... but you didn't hear that from me.  Might make emergency braking even more emergency-y.
If it's something serious in the Anti-lock system, you've got about 15 stops.  Then the whole system fails.  You'll know it by then.  If it doesn't go total fail, lucky you.

Check the brake fluid level, if that's OK then you're 99/100 O.K. too (but that 100th is a dozy).
Most brake shops will do a check up for free, solely to generate the business.

[phaedrusxy]

Here come the tics again, or whatever they are...  Basically I'm shaking and have to make a conscious effort to not do it otherwise it keeps going in some form.

Peek at your meds.  Thats a common side effect for some, and if so needs to be reported.

I'm pretty sure it's not my prozac or wellbutrin.  My tics are a combination of my ASD and anxiety/mood issues.

A friend of mine was on an antidepressant/anti-anxiety med that made his heart rate speed up to ~170 (which is high enough to be deadly)... I'd definitely talk to your Dr. about it.

[Jackinthegreen]

Here come the tics again, or whatever they are...  Basically I'm shaking and have to make a conscious effort to not do it otherwise it keeps going in some form.

Peek at your meds.  Thats a common side effect for some, and if so needs to be reported.

I'm pretty sure it's not my prozac or wellbutrin.  My tics are a combination of my ASD and anxiety/mood issues.

A friend of mine was on an antidepressant/anti-anxiety med that made his heart rate speed up to ~170 (which is high enough to be deadly)... I'd definitely talk to your Dr. about it.

My doc specifically said to make a followup appointment about 4-6 weeks after, so she knows stuff like this can happen and since welbutrin can increase anxiety we talked about that for a bit.  The main thing I need to do before complaining the medication is screwing with me is get back on a decent sleep schedule and start exercising every day.  I remember reading the benefits of just walking 30 minutes a day and it is quite impressive.

[brujon]

PSA: In the age of social media, it's pretty hard to cheat, actually.

That's all.

[Jackinthegreen]

At first I thought you were talking about athletic cheating or something.  Looking at it again I'm guessing it's more a relationship kind.

Yup, it would be difficult to do.

[bhu]

Especially when the populace has forgotten the meaning of subtlety.  Posting status updates like "I'M BOINKIN' SHIELA'S MOM! WOOOOO!" doesnt exactly help their facade.

[dman11235]

One of my friends once shared a pornhub video on FB.  Publicly.  On accident he claims.  Well publicly he claims that someone hacked his FB because he left it open and some one did it to him, but in reality it was him doing it on accident.

[bhu]

Hopefully for his sake it wasn't one of the freakier ones.  Like german porn.  Scary peeples them germans.

[Raineh Daze]

I'm pondering whether I actually hove a home outside of university right now, seeing as I flat out told my mother that I'm not speaking to her until she's dead, seeing as she apparently considered material wealth more worthwhile than talking to me.

More problematically, I appear to have bruised the back of my hand. I don't have any idea how I did this, or why it's one of those annoying bruises that actually hurt. Or where the one on my other wrist comes from. Or... either I just have a sore knee, or I bruised that too. @_@

[dman11235]

Hopefully for his sake it wasn't one of the freakier ones.  Like german porn.  Scary peeples them germans.

I think it was pretty vanilla, which would should have indicated that it wasn't a prank for leaving your comp open.  You'd think if someone was going to do that to you they would pull up the freakiest legal stuff they could find.

[brujon]

At first I thought you were talking about athletic cheating or something.  Looking at it again I'm guessing it's more a relationship kind.

Yup, it would be difficult to do.

Backstory/Confession time

I got caught. I was on Tinder while in a relationship, and the girl found out via her friend. Fortunately, that's all she knew(there was more), and after some discussion, we got back together, and all was well.

In all honesty, it was a bad call on my part - i should've just jumped ship then and there because, if i'm being truthful, i wasn't REALLY planning on keep being faithful - i already had a thing going on. But that wasn't what ended it. Paranoia got the best of her. In the end, she didn't break up with me because of what i ACTUALLY was doing, but because of what she THOUGHT i was doing.

It didn't last two weeks after we got back together. First girl i added on Facebook - which is actually just a friend that i never so much as kissed - prompted a paranoia chain-reaction on her, that ended up with her deciding that she couldn't go on with being with me.

Honestly, it's better that way. I have now fully embraced the single's way of life, and don't plan on going into a serious relationship anytime soon.

I know that i was in the wrong, that it was a sleazy and shit thing to do. If i'm being truthful, i might as well be completely honest and say that i was probably still very much butthurt about how things went down with my baby's mother, and decided to act like an asshole because i got my heart broken, and took it out on someone who had nothing to do with that and actually liked and cared for me. Not proud, but still, i can't say i regret it, either.

It's like where my heart was, there's nothing. I can't form as deep an emotional connection as i once could. I can't feel sympathy like i once did. It's like i just don't give a fuck anymore.

If there's a "Fuck it all" button somewhere inside me, i believe i have pushed it so hard the goddamn thing broke and i'm now stuck in "Fuck it all" mode permanently.

[Kuroimaken]

Brujon? Go see a fucking therapist or I'm gonna kick your ass so hard you'll taste your colon.

Love, Kuro. <3

[altpersona]

530 am yesterday : wake up for work, sinuses draining as fast as possible.
7am yesterday : at work, basically standing inside a smoke stack (im outside it, but it leaks) I look like a chimney sweep
 


8am yesterday : our shop has water supply issues, microwave a bottle of water to wash my hands with.
10am yesterday : mrs texts me to tell me we dont have water and the school is letting out early because they dont have water.
1010am yesterday : the schools automated message calls me and verifies no school till further notice.
4pm yesterday : fill two large plastic tubs w/ snow to melt.
6pm yesterday : take a whore bath (aka P.T.A) with a bottle of water.
530 am today : still no water, have full blown cold / loaded up w/ meds, call off my shift at work (im scheduled 64 hours this week, missing 8 wont kill me but im also greedy). indoor snow has melted a little.
1130 am today : mrs is trying to speed up the snow melt to do dishes and get flushing water.
1135 am today : i remind mrs how much energy it takes to heat water. still have a cold.
1136 am today : checking bank to see if i have gas money to make it to florida, nope. 
135 pm today / now : watching the snow melt in pots on the oven, topping them off as needed. then doing dishes 

[awaken_D_M_golem]

brujon ... or ... details aside, she was the Rebound gf, you've had your moment of introspection, and now you're back in the saddle good to go.

[awaken_D_M_golem]

... seeing as I flat out told my mother that I'm not speaking to her until she's dead ...

... More problematically, I ...

Usually cutting off a family member for good, is the #1 thing that day.  The fact that there's something else bigger, suggests part of you has moved on already.

[brujon]

brujon ... or ... details aside, she was the Rebound gf, you've had your moment of introspection, and now you're back in the saddle good to go.

You get it. Yes, that's more or less what happened.

[Raineh Daze]

... seeing as I flat out told my mother that I'm not speaking to her until she's dead ...

... More problematically, I ...

Usually cutting off a family member for good, is the #1 thing that day.  The fact that there's something else bigger, suggests part of you has moved on already.

It's not really bigger, just more of an actual problem than something that won't really get in the way until May. Unless whatever ability I have to function to any extent disintegrates before that, which would, I suppose, be the main problem.

[bhu]

It's like where my heart was, there's nothing. I can't form as deep an emotional connection as i once could. I can't feel sympathy like i once did. It's like i just don't give a fuck anymore.

Have you been on anti-depressants?  Inability to connect with people is a common side effect.