Friend messages me a screenshot of my ex-fianceé on Tinder. I had previously told him that i did not care if he saw her and didn't want to know.
Not that i didn't know this was going to happen, but, yeah, dick move on his part.
To be totally fair, he probably forgot what i said and thought i'd want to know. He cyber-stalked his ex-girlfriend during multiple of his breakups and obsessively wanted to know her every move, torturing himself with the knowledge that she was sleeping with multiple guys and liking them much more than him.
I NEVER understood why the fuck he did that, but he seems to assume that everyone else also want to know everything about their breakups.
No, man, i don't - thanks. I'm already doing whatever i can to get over her, and i don't need reminders that she's an attractive female that can get as much dick as she wants, while i need to outperform myself every single time to even land a girl as attractive as she was.
Nevermind the fact that i'm not (very) happy with the girl i'm (temporarily) with, but am sticking with her anyway to steer off loneliness. Yes, i'm very much aware this is a totally dick move. Karma will probably come and bite my in the butt later. I just can't bear to be alone at this point in time. Again, i'm very much aware that this is a completely pathological hardcore co-dependency shit, and that i'm basically incapable of seeing myself as "worthy" unless i'm with an attractive female long-term, or am getting a bunch of attractive females short term.
Doesn't help that when you're single, it seems that the world is suddenly filled with attractive females... (I know it's not. Just that my standards before were colored by her beauty, and there aren't that many chicks that grab a guys attention when he's in love with an attractive female... but as soon as he's single, wooow, now those less-than-attractive females are looking pretty good)
